Less than diligent

I have been less than diligent in my updating of this blog. I am working and getting on with my life "living with cancer but not dying from cancer" that I forget about the blog for awhile, then something happens to spark me back to the blog. My mother in law had eye surgery yesterday and seeing her last night with Patti taking care of her brought back a lot of memories. Actually a flood of emotions as to what it was like a year ago on the radiation. I vow never again to receive treatments that are worse than the disease. Now that is not saying I will not have surgeries, but radiation and chemo of any sort are out of the question for me. I add the "for me" because you are not me and I am not you. I just know what I will do or not do.

I would ask that if you are reading this, pray for me as I seem to have aches and pains that spark my "what if" mode and then I go back to living my life. I guess aches and pains are part of everyday life, but when you have had cancer, it puts a whole different light on them. Sometimes I will admit, it scares me. Then I remember I put it into God's hands, and it eases my mind. Now granted, sometimes that happens many times in a day, but I do believe it always is there to bring me around to prayer.

Well, stay warm out there. The computer says it is -13 degrees. Leaving now for work (yes I have to work, but I like work) and Patti has left to help her mom and get her to the eye doctor to check her eye. I hope and pray everything is alright. Her mom took off the bandages and protective covering last night and washed her eye. Not a very smart thing to do. Pray for her.