Just Waiting

I guess the worse part about cancer and it's treatment is the waiting between the steps and on doctors to call or schedule things. I find that the hardest times is the waiting. Emotions run high and all kinds of thoughts go thru one's head about the process, the side effects, possible results and the thought of passing away. I really have come to realize the demoralizing side of cancer. But at the same time I realize the uplifting side of family and true friends. I truly realize how some people could end their lives abruptly when they lack a supporting spouse, family, church family and true friends. I have been blessed with all of these people. One other thing that I realize, people don't know what to say or avoid you. I know now that I was one of them so I can speak frankly about it. To all those who read this, don't avoid someone with cancer. Talk to them as you normally would and don't be afraid to mess up in the conversation. We are all human. I thank everyone for the cards, the calls and emails. There have been so many that at times it is overwhelming but welcome. More later when we find out from the oncologists.